Some of these poems date abit, but still stand up to scrutiny. Some are best described with a self-coinedphrase: sepia goth.
It is goth writing that is not quite so dark. I suspect itcomes from an intense optimism so strong it can defy my intense pessimism.
Praise the haiku for theircompression! They're like snapshots, their last line an emotional tag thatphotographs don't have. Not quite haiku, not quite sonnets, these meditationsportray a sense of cosmic harmony and a blindness resulting from our limitedvision of sacred balance. These were written in 2001.
Lapissky, deep blue,
Fieldof windswept marigolds;
Mid-Maymorning bliss.
Cold,dark heavy clouds
Heathaze gone, air is yellow;
Summerstorm cleans all.
Aninstant holding my breath
Afish bowl in my lap
Atree reaching below, behind and above me
Thestars and sky above it.
Norbreathe: the world has come full circle.
Darkembrace
Myriadpinpricks
Dottingour certainties:
Cosmicacupuncture
toheal our anthropomorphic arrogance.
Akeen observer of life has at one point remarked to me that everybody wants tobe a victim. I wouldnt go so far as to say everybody, but I must concede a lotof people do seem to relish in drawing attention to the woes that befall themat the hands of other people. Except, woes befall everybody. Life has a way ofpulling you into the domino effect. Youre standing there, and suddenlysomething set in motion miles away falls on you. Whack!
Thatfriend also told me that life would be simpler if humans didnt have to liveall bunched up together. I can only reply with this little story:
Sayyou decide to live alone in the woods, far from humans, seeking a simple life,far from anything that could befall you and anyone who can make you a victim.Say the winter was long and harsh. Then, come March, while the ground is stillfrozen over and covered in snow, you walk around, trying to gather what foodyou can. Something is watching you.
Schnookums,its only got two legs, are you sure its ok? What if it was sick and turnedbad?
Honey-bear,said the papa bear as he kissed his mama bear, its walking. Its fresh. Andanyway, beggars cant be choosers.
Crunch!Domino effect reaches you anyway.
Shewas dancing.
Oh,the thrill of the forbidden dance,
dancingwith a stranger
on your wedding night.
Youstep forth,
liftedby your waist and hands;
themoving waltz cannot disturb you
morethan this warm gloved hand.
Sometimesyou feel his eyes gauging you,
butmaybe you imagine them,
foryou dare not look up;
yourheart strangled, your throat strangled
byinvisible, benighted claws,
byinvisible, benighted screams;
themoving waltz cannot disturb you
morethan his warm vested clutch.
Sometimesyou feel his heart beating avidly,
butmaybe you imagine it,
oryou dare not press yours on that cage.
Yourpalms sweaty, your arms trembling
fromdark, silent threats,
fromdark, silent yanks;
themoving waltz cannot disturb you
morethan this warm tuxedoed lock
Sometimesyou feel his body pressing close,
andin those times it leaves nothing to the imagination,
andthat is most frightening of all,
foryou have no choice but to follow it
whenit leaves,
thisdancing chain.
Goth? I don't dress in black, and blood didn't tasteexciting, but I can't deny the urgency with which our world seems toprecipitate its own end. This is based on astute observation of the zoo aroundme.
Slapthe vomit on your back
Driedup, cracking, half-chewed, coloured,
Slapmore vomit on your back
Fivebucks only, buy it fresh
Makesure others drip with it too.
Don'tbe silly, black flies love
Thewalking cafeteria on your back.
Slapsome vomit here and there
Don'tyou worry about the smell
it'sjust your inside rotting outside.
Allthrown out? Make space for dessert:
Thehorrid bile that's left in you
Thatsuits the vomit on your back.
It'llcome out, you know.
Arotten apple won't make pie
Arotten egg will only stink
Butsome insist that with some mayo
meglissai
subtile
surl'eau
fleuvenain
auteint vert
perl.
voguai
lematin
lesoleil
selevant
au-del
desberges
camouffles
parune vie
verdoyante
immobile
enchante
captivante.
m'entourent
desmilliers
delgers
vestiges
decolombes
agites
flotille
innocente
d'unblanc
mousseux
qu'effleure
lesoleil.
mescheveux
mesdoigts longs
commede grands
rubansblonds
caressentl'eau
gnrent
uneonde
unevague
peine
perue
odanse
lentement
leduvet.
voyageai
silencieuse
surles flots
langourssentl'eau
gnrent
uneonde
unevague
peine
perue
odanse
lentement
leduvet.
voyageai
silencieuse
surles flots
langoureux
dansle calme